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tonight ought to be fun with stephanie by my side. :]
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[27 Feb 2005|11:25am] |
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the last two nights kind of sucked because i was sad about something the majority of the time, but they were still cool. most of the time i kept my mind off of all the bs.
so we're definately moving. my parents are out looking at houses right now. they just went out to one in gulf breeze which, when i called them, they said it sucked. they looked at another one off olive road too. i don't know if i want to move. i do, but i'd like to stay going at woodham because it seems like at every other school there is someone who doesn't like me. oh well. life is life.
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[24 Feb 2005|09:42pm] |
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This house is full of ears but I can't talk to anyone
They've heard this one a thousand times
Most exciting thing I do
Hang half way out a third floor window,
Maybe throw lit cigarettes down
And maybe I'll catch fire,
Something warm to hold me,
Something pure to burn away the darkness
That hides inside my mind
All that evil shit's not hard to find
I guess I only claim to be nice
This house is full of eyes but I can't look at anyone
They've seen this face a thousand times
Most relaxing thing I do
Hang half way out a third floor window,
And look at rocks if I fall out,
And maybe I'll fall hard,
Something tough to break me,
Something sharp to rip into my insides
And bleed out all that pain
Sorry I don't even know your name
I guess for me it's easy this way
Maybe I'll catch fire,
Something warm to hold me,
Something pure to burn away the darkness
That hides inside my mind
All that evil shit's not hard to find
I guess I only claim to be nice
Fits quite well how I feel right now. One of my old favorites.
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[23 Feb 2005|05:57pm] |
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wtf. :\
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[22 Feb 2005|07:57pm] |
today was greater. tomorrow shall be greater.
i met the nicest and most interesting guy today.
and hey, i miss my bff.
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[21 Feb 2005|08:45pm] |
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today was a great day. it started off gloomy but ended up beautiful. just the type of days i like. i had fun, both at school, and out of. and i'm looking forward to wednesday, more than any day this week. i learned alot about blood today, and my partner and i almost got to dissect a stingray in marine biology. jaws is a cool movie.
( [+2] )
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[20 Feb 2005|05:28pm] |
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previous entry was deleted.
i like watching tv when i'm down.
and eating soy burgers with tofutti and bac-o's.
:)
oh, and i love my parents.
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[17 Feb 2005|09:18pm] |
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i'm so bored. i'm sitting home on the computer, and it's driving me crazy because i ran out of things to do. earlier, i made some delicious spaghetti with vegan sauce and pasta. wonderful. it tasted so good. i went to evermann's today and signed up for a membership, so now i have one. and i bought alot of groceries. boca burgers and spinach things, different rices, bread, butter, meats, cheeses. yum. and i bought hummus. haha. yay.
sometimes i wonder if i really miss the feeling of love or if i just miss the satisfaction of having a boyfriend. whatever it is that is going on with me, though, is definately taking a toll on my emotions. i have no way to let all this frustration out. i associate with barely anyone anymore. it's sad, really.
trying to keep a positive outlook on life is pretty damn tough. but i still do it.
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[15 Feb 2005|08:25pm] |
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this is a partial rant.
i wish people would just accept it. it felt great eating my meat-free sandwich infront of people that seem to shun me for it, today at lunch. it felt great to hang out with georgelina after school, and i'm so tired because of the length of this day. i wrote a few songs for ashley and i's thing at school today, some are good, some are eh. but i have a feeling if i show anyone i'll only get honesty. it makes me mad. i'd like people to actually let me lean on them, sometimes. it helps, instead of always being shot in the rear end.
so this week is going to be long and boring. today in class, i asked mrs. bolling what kind of tv shows she watches. she told me animal planet and TCM, and i laughed inside. besides that, it was an okay day. lots of laughs.
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[14 Feb 2005|10:48pm] |
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i hate this fucking day.
i lost someone really close.
close-minded.
close to my heart.
fucking pretentious, but still hurts.
and i can't stop fucking crying.
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[14 Feb 2005|08:27pm] |
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here's to another valentine's day alone, green tea and hummus.
it'll get better, hopefully by next valentine's day.
fuck this stupid hallmark holiday and how much everyone treasures it.
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[13 Feb 2005|05:11pm] |
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my weekend consisted of that cutie, and a bunch of other things. we did some mad crazy driving around, and apparently i got a screw in my tire so we had to get that replaced. friday night was alright, i introduced ashley to steven and that was aweeesome. then since that place fucking sucked [ yes, i think i'm done with the gutter. ], we went to the beach. too cold! oh, and we saw butts. cute boys ;x
saturday was great. we went to evermans, and got some veggie egg salad wraps, minus the egg. haha it was cute. vegan food <3. i think i'm going on a vegan diet, for real. i'll see how it works out. afterwards, we went to harris and looked at cute instruments and decided what kind of music we want. then we went to end of the line and sang a bunch and attracted many people, and then.. we went to my friends bonfire, and roasted veggie weenies. hehe. came home, i farted, we slept.
i love this girlll!!
valentines day is tomorrow, and i am minus the valentine.
all singles go to EOTL Love Stinx tomorrow night, valentines day. from what i've heard, it's a singles' only dance party. it'll be funn.
peace.
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[08 Feb 2005|09:10am] |
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oh my god, i owe ashley for this layout. <3 she's such a sweetie. anyway, so. i stayed up late last night doing abslultely nothing cause of the fact i didn't have to go to school until 10 today. bunch of sit ups and crap. mom yelled at me this morning cause i told her i wanted a sub before school ( cause she's not letting me drive. ). and yeah, overall. life is cutee. haha. tonight is my mary kay meeting thing. i hope all goes well with that. yup.
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[06 Feb 2005|11:03pm] |
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i love ashley for being so fucking cool.
i love stephy for giving me 17893128931 pop cds.
i love margaret anne for letting me kick her in the butt.
i love zach for saying he misses me.
i love adam for helping me with my job thing.
i love katie for being the only one to understand me.
i hate nick for being so stupid.
i hate juggalos.
hahahahaha.
<3 this weekend was great. consisted of me and ashley driving around and listenign to old pop cds, smoking cigarettes, and dancing. we spraypainted 'you are beautiful' down by the train tracks, and we went to a show at sluggos. well, partially. cute guy in the parking lot, hi. :)
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[03 Feb 2005|09:11pm] |
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groundhog, i love you. cold weather is my favorite. and your teeth are kind of cool.
cici's tomorrow for the people whole got a 4.0 or higher on their FL Writes. Haha, yes, I got a 5.0 out of 6.
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[02 Feb 2005|10:10pm] |
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my mom sent me a sweet email. i love her.
i went to moondance today and bought some hemp and beads. i'm excited about making a necklace.
this weekend i have a feeling i will have the best experience i've ever had. i'm so excited. i hope it all works how its supposed to.
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[01 Feb 2005|09:38pm] |
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i know something you dont know.
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[01 Feb 2005|06:39am] |
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heyy mom. congrats on waking me up this morning as if there was a fire in the house. if i would have known it was only 6:30, i would have let my head rest for a little while longer.
so, i'm in the process of looking for a new job. if you guys could help me, it'd be much appreciated, thanksssss. :)
some girls never give up.
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[30 Jan 2005|10:16pm] |
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home again. i am so glad that i'm home again.
today was great. :) adams was so much fun, i may make it a daily thing, possibly? i got over my fear of rats because their rat is the cutest ever. holly is really nice, as is joe.
i'm happy.
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[29 Jan 2005|11:31pm] |
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im in lafayette, and i can honestly say i wish i didn't come. but oh well.
i need a new friggin job', dammit.
and last, but not least, i'm homesick.
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